Bound To Her Forever

Prolog

I try to remember sometimes. I try to remember what life was like before I became what I am today. I like to think that maybe I had friends, a life and hopes and dreams for the future. In the darkness while she sleeps, I imagine what I might have been. I can’t recall anything about my life before they found me. I like to pretend .At 22 years old, I might have been at university. I might have had a boyfriend. He might have told me how much he likes my long red hair. We might have been happy together.  I don’t dwell on these thoughts for long if I do my tears would never cease to flow.

Part 1

I woke and looked around me. I pushed the air in and out of my lungs, I watch my breasts rises and fall. I tried to stand but my bum promptly hit the floor. I seemed to be naked. I was groggy. Where had I been? How did I get here? Questions with no answers. The nature of my environment suddenly dawned on me. Grey windowless walls, and a grim door were all I could see. Once again I attempted to stand, this time successful , I made my way to the door. However to my dismay it was locked. As the drugs left my system I started to panic. Large hot tears rolled down my rosy cheeks. Once again my mind bombarded me with questions I could not answer; where am I? how did I get here? What had I been doing before? What was my name? Hysteria wrapped round my like a noose as I realized I could not answer any of these fundamental questions . I’m not sure how much time passed but after what seemed like forever I managed to cry myself into an unpleasant sleep. I awoke slowly and before I opened my eyes, I prayed that what I had expired was a dream, God was not kind. I attempted to open the door once more. I pulled at it softly at first, then harder, harder still, a strange kind of mania took hold of me, I banged at the door until my firsts were red, I screamed and howled, but there was nothing. I slumped to the ground, broken. I cried until I could cry no more, I simply stared at the blank and unforgiving walls. I lay there for what seemed like days, nothing seemed to matter anymore.

It was not until I have given up all hope, that the door did opened. Bright light bathed me and I instinctively crawled into the nearest corner. Only now with the contrast of the outside world, did I realize how dark my little room had been. A squealing and high pitched voice that made me shudder was accompanied by a young woman entering the room. The woman, although clearly an adult was dressed as a child, she wore a brightly coloured pinked dressed, with yellow bows in braided hair.

‘’ How I love her, I love her I want to keep her forever’’ she laughed as she skipped over to me. The young woman, wrestled me to the ground and sat on top of me. Her fingers probed my mouth and pulled at my cheeks. She nuzzled at me. I was too weak and terrified to resist. As the strange woman played with me I failed to notice another enter. She was skinny, dressed in black, with a stern smile about her face. The young woman spoke to the other.

‘’ Oh I think, she’s so perfect thank you’’ . The woman in black walked towards me and her smile vanished. She stood direly over me and I was able to see up her skirt, her vagina loomed over me. I tried to look away but the young woman held my face.

‘’ my name, is Mistress, and this little one is prissy’’. At the mention of her name prissy shuddered and a hot stream of urine flowed from her onto my belly where she sat. For a moment I lay there unmoving, looking up at prissy as she smiled. I held her gaze and she shushed me softly. I stared to scream but before I could, prissy played for of her fingers inside my mouth and giggled. Mistress placed her hand on her arse cheek and prissy scrambled off me like a terrified rabbit. Prissy pressed her mouth inside Mistress Arse and started to slurped, lick and suck. Mistress spoke softly to me.

‘’ Little one, you will be prepared for your new life’’ Prissy’s laud and disgusting slurping of Mistress Anus could be heard all the while Mistress joyless voice droned on. ‘’ You must understand that from now you are no longer a human being, you are a possession, a toy nothing more.’’ With that Mistress pushed Prissy’s head hard enough for her to fall against the wall and began to leave the room. Prissy almost shyly ambled over to me, and whispered in my ear.

‘’ I love you and I want to share every with you’’. Prissy pressed her lips against me and the taste of Mistress arse filled me mouth. I moaned in disgust. prissy revolved in my suffering. Prissy bit my ear lobe and whispered again.

‘’ you see soon Mistress is going to make you my wife’’

Time passed quickly in my room, every minute I was terrified they would return. As I dwelt alone I could not forget Mistress’s ‘’words you are no longer a human being’’. As I sat there naked and alone, it felt very true .I’m not sure how long it was before the door opened again. A whimper escaped me. The silhouette against the bright light walked toward me. It was Mistress. Once again I tried to take refuge in a corner of the room; I was like a dumb animal, fearing its human master. Mistress walked over to me. She gently but firmly pushed me head towards the floor. She placed her knee on my ribcage and tied my hands behind my back. I struggled meekly.

‘’ Don’t worry you will get used to the feeling of helplessness’’ Mistress cooed softly to me. I continued to struggles against my binds. Mistress punished me; she produced a strap of leather and beat me. She hit me again and again. Each lash felt like a small electric shock that rippled throughout my entire body. No part of my body was spared the lash, the weapon found its way into every crevice of my body. Mistress was panting when she finally stopped the onslaught. Once again she knelt down beside me.

‘’ Now, are you ready to begin?’’ she said. I dared not disappoint her again but all I could manage was moan in response.  She held her hand to my nose.

‘’ I want you to suck on my fingers as if they were a cock and you were a hungry whore’’ Mistress Order. Using all of my strength I timidly began to suckle on her fingers. She slapped me hard across my bruised breasts. ‘’ Is that what I asked for?’’. I shrunk away in terror, but managed to gain enough control to try again. This time I darted me head forward and licked and sucked like my life depended on it. After she was satisfied with my efforts, she turned me over onto my back.

‘’ from now on, I am your Mistress and Mistress knows best. If I allowed you to do a poor job of licking my hand, this would hurt a lot more, you may not see it but I am acting in your best interest’’ Mistress said as she pressed her fingers against my anus and slowly wormed then into my hot throbbing arsehole.  The pain came like water from a tap as she moved her fingers further and further inside. I could feel my arsehole starting to tear as she managed to insert her entire hand and there she stopped.

‘’ I’m sure the pain you are feeling is excusing, my dear’’ Mistress said as she casually rested her hand inside me as if my arse was a pocket. My agony became a dull drumming that hit me like waves hitting the shore. ‘’ I’m sure you are asking yourself how, you can be allowed to endure such discomfort’’ At this point Mistress grabbed my hair, yanking back my head. I shirked, as new pain came to life and radiated all through my body. ‘’ you are allowed to endure such misery because you are no longer human, no longer privy to the rights that you once had’’ . My brief respite ended their and Mistress Hand continued ever further into my bowls. At this point consciousness left me and the world became dark. When I woke a retched as it seemed Mistress had not moved and my body was still racked with pain.

‘’ your body, your feelings have nothing to do with how you will be treated. I dictate everything you do from now on. I want you to thank me’’ Mistress commanded.

‘’ Thank you Mistress’’ The words dropped from my mouth in small sobs. Mistress said nothing so I continued. ‘’ Oh thank you Mistress, thank you’’ the sound of my voice seemed to come from some other place. It reverberated through my little prison and sounded so distant.

Mistress removed her hand. Relief like I could never havecomprehended engulfed me.

‘’ Now, thank me for teaching you such an important lesson. Give me a Mistress’ kiss’’ Mistress commanded. I looked at her for a moment not knowing how exactly to respond. Mistress smiled down at me and tugged at her arse cheek. I knew what she wanted. Part of me wanted to lay there and die, part of me wanted to do anything to avoid another beating, but mostly I had started to believe what she said. No world where a person, could be forced to endure such torture, could exist . So I must not be a person. I lifted my self up onto my knees and dragged myself over to my weighting Mistress. Remembering my early lesson, I approached her gapping maw with gusto and soon the sharp taste of her arse overwhelmed by senses.

‘’Good girl’ My Mistress said. Her words helped to take some of the pain away.

After Mistress left me that day, I tried to cry myself to sleep, but my anus burnt and stung. After a while my tears stopped .As I lay there and time trickled by. Part of me missed Mistress. I felt like a lonely toy that had been put in its box. I could hear footsteps quiet and timid approached my room. The door opened and prissy entered. still bound from Mistress visit early I tried to wriggle like a worm to the back of the room. Prissy walked over to me and smiled meekly. She very gently began to untie me.

‘’ Do you think I look nice?’’ She said as she twirled around.  She was wearing a flowery summer dress; the ends seemed frayed and dirty as did her feet. I responded with the enthusiasm Mistress had taught me. This seemed to please Prissy as her smile grey ever wider. She dug down into dress pocket and produced a small flower and shyly dropped into to my lap. I picked it up and she giggled.

‘’ I picked it for you’’ She told me as sat down in front of me ’’ I picked it for you because you’re my girlfriend and I love you, a lot, a lot , a lot’’ She jumped to her feet and started to twirl around the room. In that instance I wondered if prissy had ever been normal and if so what terrible ordeals had she experienced that had forced her to be this way? She stopped dancing and looked at me biting her lip nervously.

‘’ well?’’ she said. I just looked at her not knowing what to say. Prissy blushed and put her hands over her face for a moment. She repeated herself.

‘’ I’m sorry, I’m not sure what I have to say?’’ I said to her. Frightened that I would be punished for not knowing my part. She began to cry, and dropped to the floor.

‘’ I thought you didn’t like me, but really you didn’t know right?’’ Prissy said through tears.

‘’ I’m sorry, I don’t understand’’ . Prissy stopped crying and crawled to me like a cat. I pressed my back up against the wall.

‘’ its ok, ill teach you, when two girls like us love each other, one girl opens her legs for the other’’ prissy said as she reached me. She pulled up her dress and reviled a large strap-on hidden underneath it. She firmly parted my legs. I cried out because I knew there was nothing I could do to stop her .She pushed it inside of me. My vagina was not lubricated, so it hurt terribly. Prissy did not seem to notice my extreme discomfort as she rolled her hips pushing the dildo in and out of me.

‘’ you’re my girlfriend’’ prissy said as she took up a steady rhythm. ’’ I want you to say it’’ she said as she increased the speed at which she was jabbing me.

‘’ I’m your girl fried’’ I cried, in pain.

‘’ you need to please me’’. She thrust her hips harder and fucked me deeper, as if to force a response.

‘’ yes,’’ I said in agony.

‘’ I want to hear you scream’’ prissy said as she grabbed my neck and squeezed it tight at the same time as she pushed the dildo inside me as far she could. My  mouth opened and I yelled, as my insides  were battered. As I did so, prissy shut her eyes and gave a long sigh. She wore on her face a look of utter ecstasy. Neither of us noticed Mistress enter the room. She coughed to announce to us her presence.

Prissy jumped off me. I closed my legs and cradled my knees .  Prissy, wasn’t smiling anymore. Even when she had been crying earlier she still seemed manic, but now she was silent. She just stood there unmoving with her head bowed. Mistress did not acknowledge prissy she just stared at me for a long moment. Prissy seemed to tremble.

‘’ wait for me in your room, prissy’’ Mistress said softly, her gaze still firmly on me. Prissy left quickly.

‘’ What have you and prissy been doing?’’ Mistress asked. I attempted to defend myself.

‘’ Prissy came in here and she raped me, Mistress’’

‘’ Prissy and you have disobeyed me, perhaps it was not your fault but you still took part, I gave no permission for you two to play together and so you will both have to be punished. putyou forehead on the floor with your hands beside your head’ ’ Mistress said. I Obeyed. I could not see her but she seemed to disappear for a moment, the sound of a large bag hitting the floor was accompanied by mistress sitting down behind me. She placed a leather collar around my neck, 2 lengths of rope were then attached to and tied to my thighs, so my head was pulled down to my chest.

‘’ Don’t move’’ Mistress told me. I felt something prick my labia and my body jerked. However with the collar on and mistress hand holding me steady I could not move . The pain increased as it felt like a pin was piercing vagina. I wanted to vomit as a felt what seemed to be a length of thread followed behind the needle.. I started to struggle.

‘’ its ok, you are a broken doll, but Mistress is going to fix’’

As Mistress sewed up my vagina. I was starting to realize what prissy might have endured and I could understand how it might turn anyone mad. 

It was hard to tell but I think a few weeks passed. After Mistress had sewn me up things changed somehow, the beatings had increased as but Mistress had explained to me that, that’s how she shows her love. But something changed inside me. Mistress explained to me how I was just like her doll. I started to see that she was right and I wanted to be the best doll I could be. I saw prissy a few times after Mistress had sewn me up and Mistress had let us play together . Mistress told me that soon I was going to be allowed to leave my room. I was very excited.

Part 2

I placed my hand between my legs in the area, that used to open now sealed shut forever. Prissy said nothing but placed my hand back down by my side as she affixed various bows and ribbons to my naked body and hair. She took my hand and for the first time I left my little room and walked the corridors of Mistress house. The first thought that came to mind was, how nice it was and now lucky a thing like me should be allowed to exist here. I suspected that the thought was a result of Mistress’ beating and conditioning but I did not care, I was glad I was becoming what she wanted. We entered a room. The door was decorated with colorful letters saying prissy. The room was a stark contrast to my own. Pink walls, filled with  toys, teddies and dolls all arranged in rows littered the floor. A small bed with rails and a lid resembled a cage more than anything else. Mistress arrived and prissy giggled.

‘’ Alright , hold hands’’ Mistress said.

‘’ smile ‘’ prissy barked at me with an aggressive smile on her own face. I obeyed my beloved girlfriend; I stretched my mouth into a grin.

‘’ Today you will be bound together for all time, you will be one entity. Prissy beg for this honor’’ Mistress commanded. Prissy started to cry and she held me in a tender embrace.

‘’ please mistress I want this more than anything, please’’ she shut her eyes, chocked with sobs as she pleased.

‘’ And you?’’ Mistress asked looking at me. I replayed robotically.

‘’ please Mistress let me be bound together with prissy forever’’. Mistress smiled.

‘’ So you two will be made one, forever and always’’ Mistress announced. Prissy showed me with kisses and held me tight. I felt a sharp prick in my neck and everything went dark.

I woke up and all I could see was Prissy. He smiling face. A collar of iron had been placed around both of our necks, these loops had then been welded together so my head was always within a millimeter of hers. Our nipples had been stitched together, and we were forced to breathe in tandem. Another iron band went around both of our waists. My ankles were bound to her knees, and my hands were bound to her elbows. This meant that through a laborious effort, prissy could move but I do little more than wriggle. Essentially my body was pressed against hers and I could never escape. After a few minutes Mistress came and stood over us.

‘’ How is my girl?’’ she asked. Prissy giggled with joy in reply. Mistress swiftly kicked me in ribs.

‘’ you are both one animal, a single organism from now one, you  are called prissy, I expect an answer from you both of you’’ Mistress said. I tried to giggle to scared to do anything else but I came out with more of a sob. Mistress beckoned and prissy moved us slowly through the house. We arrived back into the room, the room that I was originally put in. Prissy wobbled in and dropped us on the floor, I think she was beginning to get tired carrying our weight.

‘’ This will be your room you will spend most of your time here together alone in the dark.’’ Mistress said. As she shut of the lights and left the room.

My humanity is gone now. I am no longer me, I am only an extension of her. Her perpetually grinning face is all I can ever see. She loves to lick me, to dribble and spit on me and watch her salvia sit on my face. She loves to spend long hours with her tongue entrenched up my nose and feel my body shudder as she plays her odd games. She seldom spokes to me, while we spend hours locked in the dark each day. If I try to speak or make any noises other than moans in response to her probing she sinks her teeth into my pale flesh or pull at our nipples until I beg her to stop, this of course makes it worse. I quickly learned to say nothing at all. Sometimes she would force us to lie in our own urine, while we slept, or use my hair to mop up my piss. Outside of the cell is worse. In the light she loves to look into my eyes. When mistress is too busy to play with us she will just stare into my eyes, while she lies on top of me, her weight bearing down on me as we breathe. When we eat, Mistress would always feed prissy first and prissy would chew the food for me and push it into my mouth as if I’m a baby bird. Sometimes if I had not played her games with enough vigor prissy would not allow me any food, she simply dumps her saliva in my mouth or worse yet bits down on my tongue as hard as she can. Sex is another unpleasant aspect of my existence. My vagina can of course no longer be used for Mistress Pleasure.  she regularly uses my bum for long and lingering hours. These sessions are made all the worse when it comes to prissy turn as mistress fucks her vagina and works her into an orgasmic world of pleasure. All I see is her, all I feel is her. The food that I eat comes from her. We share the same breath. I am part of her now and forever just like we all wanted .I often wonder why  Mistress has done this to me. The only answer that ever stays with me is, she did it because she loves me, but occasionally, in the long silent episodes prissy forces me to endure that answer dost seem right? My life is a living hell. However in my heart I know, that I am longer human and it does not matter what I want.